i promise i shall update my blog when i get hold of ALL the prom night photos .
apologise for the outdated posts since more than 1 month ago .

soon alright .








you know u love waiting .




and also . ermm . continue viewing alright .
i shall be active real soon .

been busy with olevels and stuff . (:

hello . i really wonder if there are still humans reading my blog . .
so i checked the counts thingy . hehe . not bad .
got about 3x the humans reading my blog on weekends .

o yeah, i changed my hair parting . initially all hair towards the left, now its all towards the right . might look weird in the pictures below .
but definitely looks fine now after my hair adapted to it . (:

sorry, for the unglam - ness . lol .



went drinking with some human beings last week .
wanted to blog but always forget . ):
went with the same people who went prawning last week .
daddy came from tampines to bukit panjang to fetch me .
then travel to jurong . met up with cuties !



ke ai ting ting .
hard to get a chance to see her again . ):



er . i drink with straw . its really very fun .
drink from the surface . haha !



i like this picture quite abit .



hehe . had quite alot of fun .
and er . there is a yellow printing cockroach in the toilet .
lol .



err .. olevels in 3weeks time .
seriously, lol .
have not started revising yet .
so dammm lazy .
shit man .

been watching gossip girls since there is no more true blood for me to watch .
pretty nice show .

pot calling the kettle back !
saw that alot of times in that show .

olevels olevels !!
whenever i online, now, i see 30% less people online compared to usual .

thats because olevels is coming .
but why m i still online ?
i dont know . haiz .

shit man . shit .
please please . really hope i will buck up .
this is my future im playing with in 3weeks time .

fuck you pin xiu . you should jump into the volcano .
which produces sulpfur dioxide and nitrogen oxides naturally .

xoxo,

Labels: PINXIU account at 01.57am 03Oct09 (:

hi cuties . usually i would only update the most 2 times a month ..
however, im updating today thanks to the fun i had on sunday night .
and if i dont update now .. i might not have a chance again so soon .
dont think i will have the strength to online when school starts .



went prawning at lakeside area !

definiately made possible by ppl below . (:



ermm . mr nice smelling guy .
only photos taken with him is fine .
the rest all like shit .
the size is small and blur .
fucking irritated by it .



he sure do smell nice .



love it .
although he might be rough sometimes . wahahaha .

and now all the unclear photos .

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yeah of course . everything is made possible by daddy . :D



finally went his office and stuff . nice job he is doing with his work . hahs .
really very happy to see him again ..
always had fun drinking or whatever whenever im with him .
very relaxing . esp during this period, he sure did helped alot .
love ya daddy . (:



prawn prawn .



i caught quite alot ok . around 7 to 9 .
they are so dam disgusting .. smelly and stuff .
but sure was fun . waiting for them to be hooked .



ermm . auntie si pi . for ever asking for si pi to be returned .



ok la . sister cutie . haha .



super friendly and nice guy . (:
daddy's bro .

some others of his friends went also la ..
but dont know them . thus leading to shyness .

alright . had fun driving with daddy here and there .
always love sitting in his car . nv fail to calm me down from the stress im having .
had an enjoyable night/morning . (:

alright . 1 more month to my o levels .
scared . esp with poa once again . god .
fuck the teacher .

Labels: PINXIU account at 12.38am 22Sept09 (:

hi . have not been updating due to my exams . Elm
still, im gonna intro all of you . 1 show which will make u addict, like hell .

fellowship of light my dears .
Trueblood .




he is bill, aka william compton . he is a vampire .
super cool .

look, this picture fits into my blog so perfectly !

its a vampire show .
should be M18 or R21 i guess .
super nice .
watched finish 1 season of it within 5days .
was watching it until 7am for quite some days .
also, nice sex sences they have . :D

very nice . it shows how the vampire and human co exist, and trying to kill each other .
also, other beings which has been living on earth like mind readers, shape shifters .

its super real . as in i can really imagine it really exist .
the charm of the show . (:

Trueblood . watch it .
ya la . and because of this show . i nv really study for my prelims .
lols .

alright . lets talk about my exam .
damm fuckening . somemore its prelims already .
cant believe my capability is so low .

however . too bad . shall work hard after my prelims .
esp for maths . for poa is totally gone case . unless mirical happens .

sian . really afraid it will be over soon .
everything is happening too fast .
and when it ends, it will be too late .
and i shall die .

really wish im a vampire . so cool .
wont mind burning in the presence of sunlight .
sleeping in the ground shall heal me .

and of course . if getting raped by a vampire can make me vampire too, definiately wont mind .

blood shall thirst me than .

also, i really wonder why my blog song cant be heard through internet explorer ..
firefox works though .

Labels: PINXIU account at 01.07am 15Sept09 (:

life has been consider boring and no - life recently .

in depression state .

been going tuition at republic poly with vivek super often . almost at least 3 times a week .
tuesday, thursday or friday, and sat .

other than that, i can spend hours and hours playing texas poker on facebook .
i will only stop, until i lose everything . sad right .
i find myself pathetic . wasting so much time on it .
super addicted to gambling .
the feeling is good . very good .
when u win .



getting alot of help for maths n my sciences ..
but still not enough because there is no output on my side .
haiz .
got into depression mood partly because of this .



cant let go of a r/s considered childish ?
i m seriously unsure .
it had been about 4month since it ended .
im still trying to let go .
but pathetic you called me childish .
lol .

i dont even know why i still cant let go .
another root of my depression .

the worse matter which caused it is actually myself .
thinking about the situation im in and what im .
even cried on my bed multiple times .
i can just cry n cry n cry for no reason .

its simply impossible to even get near the person i like .
the more i try, the more it backfires and irritates .
now what im gonna do .. is just do it silently ..
it seriously hurts when the reaction tells me it is causing incomfort to that person .
i would blame myself and even to the extend of hating myself ..
why m i so stupid and stuff like that .

i cant help it . i cant choose who i like right ?
haiz . sorry if u feel disgusted .
im really trying not to do anything to you .
sorry .

what should i do ?
i mean . what can i do ?

end of o level shall mark the end of you .
delighted or upset ?
haiz . i feel disgusting .

Labels: PINXIU account at 03.07am 31Aug09 (:

hi people . i sincerely apologise for the lack of updates ..
FIRSTLY .. a good news to 宣布 .. i got A2 for my CHINESE for olevels !
so damm happy but not satisfied . i could have done better .

i remembered vividly that i anyhow complete my paper2 .
i completely didnt understand the passage at all . and i got A2 ?
like so wrong . i was expecting B4 or worse ..
guess its my oral which helped me . got a distinction which is 34++/40 !

more than half my class got distinction . more than half the school i meant .
distinction rate was 53% for the chinese ! wahahahaha .

dam the council of 7 in my class . so fucking noisy, attention seeking, with those stupid glare, show off and so on usually right ?
HAHA . some of them were like crying due to their results .
tears of joy i suppose . happy for them . (:

boo ! anyone who had seen this photo in my phone would laught like hell . lols .
tears of laughter .

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secondly .. my mp3 got confiscated ! like so wtf . that stupid turban .
as i was late for school .. they checked our bags .
for that day .. more than 50 ppl were late . why ? cause that stuuupid turban closed the gate early .

my phone did not get confiscate due to this ! handphone possession pass .



like so fun . if late just off the phone can already .
but they still check the bag ! den confiscate my mp3 .
totally not expected . if not i would have kept it somewhr .

wonder how m i gonna get it back .



lalala . got merz during me home afterwards . so happy . lol !
bad day although getting a ride . my whole lanyard landed into a pool of chilli saunce . so heartpain can . if is some cheap ones would have thrown it away alrdy .
):



haha . she gonna get kick out of school soon .
i shall be laughting if that happens .

anyway .. was viewing a pathetic blog recently .
i wanted to get information from it .
but the english used was simply pathetic .
i couldnt force myself to read it .. thus closed it and almost puke .
only 1 word . pathetic . talked to him before . seemed even more pathetic .
no wonder became of victim of a pilofile . and no wonder that pilofile can find a victim .
because that person have got no brains . pity him . - -

and for goodness sake . im not so free to spread anything .
im mature enough to not do this childish act .
not like that fool . went to ask around '' got anything bad about pin xiu to say ? ''
lame .
also, i have always been doing things explainable to my own conscience .
i dont do things behind ppl's back, rather, i would do it opening & definately infront of that person . u dont offence me . i would definately smile for you 24/7 if you want .

lol . obviously anyone would be helping me . even if got, so stupid tell you meh .
cutie . wake up please . no wonder both of them end up together . same kind .

wahahahahahahaha .

lastly .. hello . thanks for reading . (:
love you guys .
fuck you, fuck me . (:

Labels: PINXIU account at 09.43pm 19Aug09 (:

didnt update for 2weeks because of blogger not functioning as im a singnet user .
finally sloved the problem by reading blogger's forum today .
was asking around for solution but didnt work . hahs .

gonna like upload afew photos only .. actually planned to post part by part but lazy .. compounded it into this post . (:

alot of changes occured recently .
after rebonding my hair for 1 week, i cut my fringe away due to threats from multiple teachers in school . its like so lame . my form teacher, level head, n DM said nothing about my hair .. its the extras which made comments instead .
my rebonded hair looked so nice .. i love it so much . but too bad .. it have to be gone .



so nice right .



too bad~ waste my money + time rebonding it .
its gone now ! i shall upload pictures without my precious rebonded hair next time .



and ermm . yeah ! i got a new lanyard from gucci .
friends who had been asking should have known already .
my sister bought it for me from overseas few weeks ago .
with tax refund all those its somehow cheaper . (:

first part of the post about my hair done ! (:

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this is my precious friend terence .
known him for about a year already .
best buddy .
and i loveee the post he gave me in his blog .
this is for you ! (:



we look so sweet right . awwww .
used your precious toshiba lappy to take . - -



canoeing competition coming soon right .
Jiay0u for your training alright ! (:
i wanna go gym with you alsooooooooooooooooooooo .

second update about you ends here . sorry that its so short . ):

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now, for the third update in this post . in school !



during history lesson .
my ****ing history teacher sucks like hell .
we did like more than 5 mock exams but got none back so far . fed up .



this is taken during english lesson .
our english teacher gave use mock prelim oral outside the class one by one .
i did pretty well for it .
but during the real prelim oral which was held on friday 31/7/09, i totally did not do well . due to the teacher who tested me i guess . her hair is super funny .. control my laughter n she spoke so soft when she asked me question for conversation . im definately gonna do better for the real Olevel oral . (:



err . history lesson again . actually took quite alot . but wont wanna upload all as it would be boring . ;D



merlion . :D



one of my best buddies in class !
sitting between us is jing yong which i actually talk alot to him .
but its like talking to myself .. as he doesnt really reply my craps .
o well ! :D

enjoyed myself in class 4B alot .
all my classmates are nice people . but they are abit too smart . ):
im trying to catch up asap .
time is short . i shall work very hard as prelims is in less den a month's time .
after which shall be our Olevel .

i really hope i will not be going RP ..
but with my results now . i guess its inevitable .
if my score is too low .. im not sure if i should continue my poly studies ..
frankly speaking . its easier to get into JC den poly ..
everyone is snatching for good course with good scores .
all the course i want is at least L1R4 less than 13, those hospitality courses .
its gonna be harddd . ):

pin xiu, you must really work alot, alot harder .. only afew more weeks of battle and you should be free . really really do not wanna live with regrets for the rest of my life .. Olevels shall determine your future . haiz .

im like feeling kinda down recently .
simply cant get motivated to study due to alot of distractions .
i must really get into study mode soon .
i have been copying my hmwks n not studying since sec1 ..
i wonder how m i gonna survive this .. haiz .
someone teach me pleaseeeeeeeee . ):

also, regarding the unknown tagger in my blog . -- deleted --
your question regarding me str8 or what had been asked multiple times, in diff forms .
i wonder if its the same person .
but im not gonna remove it as im totally not bothered .
if you are really curious you can come ask me myself . lol . (:

in conclusion, i must really work very very hard for my Olevels this few weeks .
my target for now .
i really hope i can do it ..............
haiz

Labels: PINXIU account at 01.06am 08Aug09 (:

errr . went to rebond my hair . hahs .
felt doing so out of the blue n decided to get it done asap .
my dearest sister went with me . :D
she stoned there for 2hours with me .
great sister i have . :D
if anything were to happen to her ..
i shall be the first one to do anything for her .
but doubt anything will happen .
wahahahahaha .
she power ok . :D



hmm .. it took about 2hours .
do until very hungry .



ermm . dont know is i pay too less or what .
the auntie like anyhow do de . lols .
cause i argued with the auntie with the pricing before i do the rebonding .
and she seemed kinda unhappy .
because pin xiu won .
i made her rebond the back of my hair also .
my fault i guess .
o.o



i like this photo . haha .



retro .
my father had this hair last time .
saw the photo . shall scan it some other time . (:

around 50 more days to prelims .
i dont even know the content of every subject till now .
laughting at the pathetic state im in .
thinking about it makes me cry without fail .
wanna do something about it .
will you help pin xiu ?

having alot of trouble with my nose hole .
whenever i take a nap it will drop . n will be stuck inside my nose .
have to dig it out . thanks god i did not breath the stick in .
then after that swollen .
then cannot find the hole, as if it closed .
then i had to force it in .
then bleed bleed bleed .
then next day cannot do any expression on my face as it would affect my nose .
only when taking naps . when i sleep at night nothing will happen . lols .
position with my nap n sleep is different i guess .

ermm . played basketball with my dearest class 4B boys during PE .
sick of badminton . ):
whenever anyone bang onto me even if its not hard, they will ask me if im alright.. (:
as in will look at me and feel guilty .. then say, '' sorry sorry u ok anot ? ''
so polite can .
been asked for more then 10times in that single PE lesson .
first time playing with them ..
fun . and they are super nice ppl . love them ! (:
afew more months and we will be going for the hardest challenge yet, Olevels .
they are ready . but m i ?

will be blogging soon about my pangyasea stuffs .
realise that i did not blogg about it before .
its my favourite all time when i was sec1 n 2 .
but now it closed down alrdy . sad .

i wished i had you .
impossible i guess .
you always acted like u didnt know, which hurts .
knowing and admitting and accepting is 3 totally different thing .
you told me . i know it all now .
trying my best to be perfect is not enough .
it will never be enough . for you .

Labels: PINXIU account at 12.44am 18July09 (:

wanted to blog some days ago but blogger is having some technial problem . lols .
went spring carnival thingy on last sat .
was expecting more than what is there . sad . ):

wore this to school . i wore it not for school but because im having an outing with vivaik afterwards . it had been more than half a year since we went out !



got insulted by my ex band majour . say i wear until too '' kua zhang '' . sacastically .
please la hor . who more kua zhang .
at least im presentable .
look at you . go fish market ar AUNTIE . - -
and the hair .. err like weed .
the teeth .. make it sound nicer . rabbit teeth, or a witch . - -
pathetic . please take a look at yourself if u wanna comment on others .
really disgusting n .. whatever . lols .
alrdy in jc still look so pathetic n gross .
please lo . not that i wanna say u or what .
just to remind you .. keep your comments to yrself n err . maybe go buy a mirror or ask your mum how to make yrself look like a lady rather than a bitch . (:



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babooon . hahs .

bought some stuffs from penisula quite fun . ;D
hmm ..
its wk2 of term3 alrdy .
but im still copying hmwks .
feel so useless .
its only afew more weeks to prelims ..
wake up pin xiu ! (:

just took my Olevel chinese oral yesterday .
question was easy but i dont think i did my best .
nervous-ness took it all out of me . haiz .

will blog more often i think .
was dam busy this few weeks .
stay tune . (:

Labels: PINXIU account at 08.07pm 08June09 (:

err . my 3rd week of school holiday was filled with excitment n also fun .
enjoyed myself alot . (:
but the fun stopped after last wk of swimming, hotel staying, working, ton-ing .
did not really take photos when i go out now adays .
pin xiu changed le . n also his phone camera sucks . - -
some photos are also kept for my own pleasure n not shown here .
some friends might get to see it in my phone when i share with them .
haha !

so yeah . swimming has no photos although its fun like hell . at jurong the sports complex .
but i injured my right knee .
now got the yellow thingy come out . when in contact with water hurts like hell .



worked for some Domanchi show thingy .
pay is less but i need money .
n + i got a free shirt from thr ! (:
can see the earstick on my nose . lol .



ermm . shes from regent sec . ;D



went to stay for fun at this resort in sentosa for 1 night .



had buffet dinner n breakfast thr . haha .



look at my arm . lols .



the hotel rooms look something like that . so damm cool .



blur .



haha .



she reborned her hair n i had my hair cut .
behind looks like a V . i like it . haha .

recently damm addicted to texas on facebook .
i can play it the whole night .
so fun .
ok la . im naturally a gambler . the excitement . omg .
had a new wish .
to visit the casino all over the world . (:

oya .. my chinese O levels sucks .
alrdy can guess i had to take it again . sian .
i really wanna improve on my maths ! i love mr chong . (:

i love poa too but our teacher just sucks ..
wanted to drop poa becos of that fucktard but cant drop anymore . ):

1 more wk n school is gonna start .
too much fun last wk makes this wk boring .
super boring .
hate life . wished for that someone to come back to me . brighten my life again .
but er . seemed to be avoided n ignored by that someone .

so sick of my blog song .
just realised that my posts are getting lesser n lesser .
no mood blog . forgive me my dears . (:

alot ppl say i look like the Kim Bum from F4 Boys Over Flowers .
actually ok la . abit .

hate my current life .
wanna change it . but how ?

lone n darkness covers me .
pity me someone . n come rescue me .
i shall be yours .

Labels: PINXIU account at 07.31pm 22June09 (:

gonna be quite a long post . =x
haha .. had fun this few days ..
but attending classes n stuff like that r boring . ):
im wearing a black earstick on my nose for pictures taken below . (:




R J RJ . (:



xiaoboy . (:
went out n decided to meet daddy also,
as it been quite awhile .
then went his house ..



my sister fellowed too . as she was bored . haha !



both of us wearing black earstick on our nose . (:



she look like fairy .. lol .



can see the earstick on my nose ? =x



haha .



daddy busy working . =x



so touching lo .. got my picture display in his room . (:
also saw the heart shape bearbear i bought for his birthday ..
its on the wall !
happy . ;D
love u daddy . haha .


err .. after that i was bored . so played webcam with sebas . =x



every picture is like this . but i cut it . n turned like ..



this ! haha . sexy . ;D



1, 2, 3 !



cute ahbeng . :D



blur .



fun night !
left the house n went to taman jurong lan .
pei my sis go find her friends thr .
but they all not thr, only alvin is thr . talked to him abit too .
after that went to eat .
den weijie they all came to find her .
they smoked awhile den left le .
daddy send us home abt 3++am ?
bathe le den went to bed around 5am . tired .

cut out some photo from the webcam thingy . got 2 nice ones .



can see the stick on my nose ? haha !



first time take pictures which r able to see my nose piercing .. haha . fun .

Labels: PINXIU account at 08.20pm 10June09 (:

was randomly viewing my photos .
decided to blog since i have not post for quite a long period .
thus, its gonna be a very long post with lots of photos !
but at the end of this post, do notice some coloured words .

i like this photo alot sia .
jolynn like so cute . haha .



took this exactly 1month ago . 03may09 . chuan . (:



watched the x-men origins . aaron . (:



im super jealous of them .. hahs .
they got something which i can nv ever have ..

03may09.. this was the day which nightmare started . hahs .
truth revealed itself ..

still lie me say what u r his brother all those shit .
lol . slut .
omg . talking abt it makes my blood boils .
haha . getting confused right ?
so i shall stop . (:



daddy birthday that day . ;D



haha . (:



ermm . my section leader . ;D



my classmate . this photo was taken with my phone .
the rest on top was with her phone .
no diff right ?
mine 3.2 mp n hers is 8.0mp !

for mine 1 photo is less den 1MB .
jolynn de phone 1 photo is around 3MB !
incredible right . haha . lol .



cat cat . i took this .
so cute right . love this photo like hell .
Meow ~



suddenly saw this photo too .. haha .
wondering how has he been doing recently .
alrdy advised him to transfer sch himself le .
everytime in band or school also kena picked . ):

thought of the time i spent when i was in band .
turned so black but happy .
missed it . esp the SYF period ..
haiz . but its impossible to get that feelings back again .
the feeling when we marched out .. boom !
lol .




It kinda hurts.
Here i am at home alone thinking about this thing,
I can imagine the things you will be telling to the new guy, slut .
Same things you said with me.
I really hope they are meant for me. Only.



The memory of us washed with the waves
The small meaningless love moment lost in time
The one thing we had we thought would never be lost
I thought you wouldn't let me fade away
I was wrong



Sometimes I feel you’re not deserving my love
And still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away

Labels: PINXIU account at 07.52pm 03Jun09 (:

i love my w705 alot after using it for almost 1month . (:
the screen is very big n crystal clear . just that it is abit dark .
haha .

sorted feelings out this few days .
thought of things i want in life n love .

really thanks alot for ppl who came to talked to me after reading my blog ..
called, sms, msn, or just seeing me around n asked me how m i .
i didnt know that so many ppl still reads my blog, despite me not updating n had not been online for a very long period . at least now i know who really cares .

many ppl said the same thing over n over again to me ..
'' dont make yrself suffer becos u love yrself . ''
'' dont give up the whole forest just becos of one tree . ''
'' you deserve someone better . just give it to him . ''
'' just sit back n watch . it wont last . ''
'' we cannot understand matters of heart . but once it change, thr is nothing u can do . ''

yeah . it all makes sense .
so i decided to just let it go .
alot of ppl also told me abt what they know abt him .
had been hearing n linking everything together .
in the end, it all leads to 1 conclusion, 1 answer, 1 discovery .
n i laughted . found it funny of cos .

1 word came to mind .
STUPID . haha .

u want it ? i give you lo . (:
now that i realise . i have nothing to lose .
although it was quite hard at the beginning, but now, everything seemed fine .
life goes on n blah blah blahhh ..
sometimes .. i will still think abt it ..
but i cant change the fact . so i had to accept it .
hahaha . plastic . - -

enough about it . lets talk abt .. me !
i had my nose piercing done, successfully the second time .
dont know how long would it last but im happy . (:

my mid-year exam . ermm . i did not take emaths paper2 becos i woke up late due to sleeping until very late , poa paper 1 & 2 n also physics due to having fever . real ok .
and when i went to hall for the last exam i having, chemistry , everyone is like . '' pin xiu ! so long didnt see you . u pon all the exam ? ''
actually . not really . i dropped amaths also .. thus, u all dont really get to see me . n also, i dont take bio . ;D

been listening to sad n old songs every night before i sleep .
makes me feel comfortable .. n not so lonely .

alot of ppl had been asking me to blog about part 2 from my last post .
this shall be my part 2 . (:

15may was my tony daddy's birthday . had steamboat n went punggol park . thr is a very nice Bliss cafe/restaurant which turns into a pub at night . i was the only non smoker thr . even someone younger than me sitting thr smokes ! haha . but still, not my kind of thing .

Happy Birthday Daddy . (:
had so much fun running here n thr looking for a cake shop with roy n sebes .
haha . fun day . i love you daddy . (:

really really appreciate those ppl who had been around me for this few weeks .
im all new once again . thanks . like what alot ppl say . im still young . this kind of thing is seen very often in the circle . although this is my first time coming across this kind of shit, but i roughly can get what it means . (:

Labels: PINXIU account at 02.48am 17May09 (:

lets say .. what if your worse fear came true ?
how would you react n how would u handle it ?

for me .. i surrendered .

u fall in love with some guy nicked bin .
u met him behind my back when we r still attached together .
your excuse for leaving me is becos of some rubbish like '' our r/s had changed after our 2nd month . u shld know . ''
hello . truth is i didnt know, any shit .
although we had been in some misunderstandings recently ..

but how can that be an excuse to u having '' dates '' with that guy ?

u mean .. just becos we had been in quarrels, u can go get his numb ?
meet up with him behind my back ?
i find it kinda rediculous n crappy .

if something is wrong within us, u shld have came to consult me n slove it somehow .
but yr solution is to find a third party ? express yr liking for him proudly ?
seriously . i felt insulted .
we have not even settled our problem n u could actually go to temasek poly n met him for dinner, happily, yesterday, 6may09 .

last wk, we onli met twice . wed n sun .
on wed .. when u r with me, u actually called him n offered to buy him an iphone leather casing . his name in yr contact is :-D .
i asked u who was that . u lied to me saying its yr friend .
i made myself believe it . trust it .
but still, i could felt something was wrong .

on last sun, u msged that :-D again n he called too .
i asked u again who is that . u said it was yr brother .
but actually . u lied again .
i took the numb, n kept calling that numb ..
n in the end, he answered, shouted at me n said a diff identity .
both of u planned it alrdy .
i took down the numb .. n found out to be bin on this tuesday 05may09 .
i was disappointed, scared, stanned, speechless, lost .

we have not even settled our dispute n u still went to meet him happily yesterday .
did u even care how i feel after finding out the truth ?
no, u dont . u only requested me not to go disturb Mr third party .
i felt anger at that moment .
'' hello ? im like the victim here now n u, who claims that u love me, dont even care n only wanted me not to go approach that bin . ''
yeah. i know whats yr reason for saying that ..
u dont wanna me to spoil yr plan . hahs .

so on 06may09, u msged me in sch n asked for a break up .
i was like . wow . shocked .
n at night, met u at tantric n talked .

everybody talked to me before i met u . n what they could say is,
matter of the heart of someone can nv be understand .
once it changes, we cant stop it . there is no way we could do anything abt it .
what u can do, is just accept it n move on .
yeah . i cried alot last night n my eyes still hurts .
sleepless night last night, thus, too tired to go sch .

told my mum n she understand it n allowed me to stay home n rest .
great mum i have . (:

dearDear
永遠永遠手牽手
一步兩步一起走
永遠永遠要記得
我們要一起生活

不管晴天的時候
不管下雨的時候
不放開手到永久
我們要一起生活
I Love U...

haha . bullshit . that was meant for me at first ..
but now . for yr MrBin .
there is always such thing as karma in life ..
everyone told me to just wait n watch .
yeah . there is anger within me which can only be cooled maybe aft i see u suffer .
no matter what story u r telling others how u end up liking bin, ppl have eyes to see .
just becos we quarreled n u end up with some other guy ? omg . interesting .

i blogged this not to pick on anyone, but just expressing how i felt this few days ..
n lastly.. thank you tony daddy, roy, imran n others whom i really appreciate alot in helping me to slove this problem .. esp tony daddy, for staying by my side during this time .. n also, my great mum .

yeah .. tagbox in yr blog is removed to avoid me spamming it .
hello ? im not as childish as u .
yeah .. its not yr choice to step into triangles ..
it takes 2 hands to clap .
not yr choice , den whose ?
http://binblock.blogspot.com
yeah .. true love nv dies .

ppl have eyes to see what is yr motive .
so ermm . ya .
writing so much doesnt help . ;D

love is unpredictable ..
but guilt shall be felt forever . if u r still human .

Labels: PINXIU account at 01.18pm 07May09 ):

last sat 2/5/09 ..

bought w705 ! camera not very good but i loveee the phone .
after buying the phone, series of unhappiness happened ..
if i know after buying the phone so much things will happen, i rather not have it .

met up with tony daddy for dinner becos very long time no have dinner with him le . haha . aft he fetch me from jurong he tell me he fetching this cute guy also .. (:



but before that, went JP with alvin n den the lan . i slept thr . ;D
thanks alvin . haha .



went to have butter pork n claypot chicken soup .. its was like wow . unique . butter pork u kno . i didnt even kno such thing exit until daddy say he wanna bring us somewhr to have unique food . haha .



he have figner piercing u kno ! so cool n scary la . haha .
found out some dark secrets abt my younger sister from him cos he know her too . but den i consulted my younger sister n she said another story which is like totally opposite .. whatever . :D dont know who is lying though . haha !

i told tony that he is so cute .. n when i go toilet, he told tony that im very cute also ! . so cute of us lar . haha .





went maxwell den punggol park .
thanks daddy for meeting up . :D
had such a fun time becos i was feeling veryyy down due to someone .
love his music in his car . so memorable .. the '' bom bom bom '' loud music n his car. dangerous driving . he almost had a fight with a taxi driver . he seemed so lost aft that incident also .. frightened by him . haha . hope nothing happens .

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wait wait wait n wait .. in the end what were u doing ?
gone to changi eat steamboat . hahs . i alrdy told u im waiting . but u dont seemed to care . u only tot i wanna quarrel .

went for movie with chuan n arron n long . x man origin, on sunday .. story line simple but exciting actions . aft the movie, discovered a tragic lie . once u lie, more lies will be told to cover the original lie ..
i finally understood wat it meant ..
all the lies doesnt even link if u think abt it . it just doesnt link .
becos its a lie . hahs . foolish me to even tink that im just thinking too much ..

why must u lie ? of everyone why you ?
disappointed .. sad .. angry .. felt stupid .. stress ..
i couldnt even breath in the train .. brain just stanned .
do u even kno how much i trust u ? felt so lost ..
becos u changed . n u dont even feel guilty that im in this state .
hahs . foever . nothing is yr fault . everything is mine.
stop convincing me to end it .. becos i wont .


will update abt sunday nex time i post ..
only ppl present saw everything . n also .. thanks for helping ..
no mood to continue this post .
long post ya ?
after not blogging for so long ..
so so so long . hahs .

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